the last of '09

if next year carries on like the last two or three months itwill be amazing :) ifnot maybe it willbe even better, and if it gets worse, i will die :(

the brothers party went vair well, kinda surreal, we talk to his friends all night, then, they come back my brother goes bed, me, fik and cheney, left with two nice 18 year olds, 6.45 we slept, oh good times :)

now new years is going to be boring as, the boys are immatre and boring, and t took a while for me to realise this! personality and confidence is actually such a refreshing change from the boring fuckers i know :(

i want ot keep this blog going right now, ut i cba to type anymore!

happy hapy new year!

officially clonified :)

yes yes, my heair has beenofficially clonified!
and ILOVEIT!


danm if i do say so i look pretty fineee :)
thanks tolisa ofc!

and everything is happy and fun
only if life was like this all the time, i didnt even mind revising for 3 hours today,
i NEVER revise!

bleeding eyes

is what i have right now, spent 3 and a half intese hours without facebook or anything getting all my coursework done, so i can spend the rest of my christmas revising science and maths! yay.

i enjoyed friday, it was lavely having all the girls over,
i have missed it, more sleepovers from now on deffinate :)
then ryans last night was jokes,
the film martyrs was fukcing weird!

everything is happy,
cos its christmas :)
i am really wondering what i have got from the padfre cos he said he is especialy excited to see my reaction, WHY!? WHY!?
well only got 5 days until i find out :)

i would bet a million pounds o it taking my hours to get to sleep on thursday, sleepinng restlessly for a few hours and waking up no later then 6, six would be late for me.

EXCITMENT :D

put away your butters one

ahhh lily allen was soo good last night,
thogu i hate french people
they are arrogant and rude
and just annoying! then two dykes managed to get infrom of us and they were tonguing eachother all night, it was horrid.
and a girl fainted right before my eyes, i was shocked, untill sthe space was cleared of her body and i took the space nicely :)
but actual gig was so good :D

finished all myt mocks now, so ccan relax a little, still need to do some major revision over the holidays but i will work it out,
IT SNOWED! actual snow!
thoghu it didnt settle :(

im feeling for the weekend :)

there seems to be a major change for everone atm, but not for me.

havent blogged in timeeee
but relating back to the title, everyine is getting changes
kiri-bosid
flik-ryan
cheney-bath
me-nothing.

i have nothing t oreally look forward to atm
everyone pisses me off all the rime
and i feel crap for being such a moody shit

and mocks are fail, science litterally makes me cry.

nothing seems to releive me from everything for too long anymore before it all comes crashing in again.

this was depressing i feel bad if you read it

The Days Seem So Long,Then You Look Back And Wonder Where All The Time Went.

seriously so much is all happening at once,
kiri now has a boyf (L)
need to get me one of those,

school is manic, i lays feel like i have work to do,
and i usually do,
but i just dont do it,
and have come to the conclusion i will die if i fail anytihng,
i guess i best start accepting death soon then.

panic attacks in the form of emotional outburst's everynight,
bad times.

just not coping.

i find it so hard to admit to things,
i seriously hate talkin aobut my feelings
therefore i type it,
like this.
it makes me feel better omentarily,
thn everything comes back agian.

i do LOVE my girls tohugh,
seriously,
they are amazing,
and vair vair cliche but i dont know what i would do without them

noa dayss i result to dncing aroundmy front room with my 10 year old sister to gaga for an hour quite often.

weeekend

the weekend was good :)
went to amys saturday and ate, and created, and watched, and slept.
then,,,
we woke up at the unearthly hour of 8...
ON A SUNDAY.
ew.
but worth it,
we got the train with her other friends
to earls court,
we were the almost 2 hours early.
that was dissappointing,
but wrth it after queuing,
we got second row on rimmel stage to see PALOMA FAITH (L)
then jammed around
almost got beaten up by big black scary girls :s
then went though to the main stage,
it was SOOOOOOOOOO GOOD! wsant quite far enough to the front to get on camera,
but it was stil a good'n :)
THANK YOU AMY,
the journey home was long tbh!
and after not eating alll day or consumnig 1 single fluid what so ever, when i did, i got a HUGE head ache.
then i got home, i had left overs.
i then got shouted at over nothing,
the "father" then brought mum into things again,
so then i was all, i dont care about your opinions and he was all like,
well your an incolent bitch and i was all like,
nice.