own entity

coffee and panini with miss abbot was nice :)
and for that hour,
altohugh we were talking about bad stuff,
everything seemed to go away,

i have always known i needed my friends,
but i am realising how much,
when i am with them,
no matter what,
i can always get away from the horrid thoughts that occure in my head.

i hate giving her the attention,
really do, but i cant help but talk about her

there are so many things i wish i could do,
and probably could, if i wasnt so lazy,
i say i wouldnt be able to or i havent got the time,
but thats all i lie, i really do and could,
but i just cant be botherd.

but what makes that harder is i am getting bored of myself,
theres nothing special about me,
nothing i stand out for,
i want to better myself so bad.

i dont really know who i am,
am i just a mix of everyone around me,
yeah, pretty much,
what happend to me being my own entity,
it ran away a while ago and i just didnt relaise i think.

i listen and dont speak,
i help everyone else out eith their life,
and put mine to the side,
but in a weird way im okay with that,
cos i dont like talking about my feelings,
and i like observing other peoples lives,
and when someone needs help, im there,
and i hope they know that.